Three Months Later

The past few months have been a whirlwind of activity. I graduated from college, watched two of my best friends walk down the aisle, took a road trip to Ohio, and played in a beach tournament in Galveston to name a few of the things that have occupied my time. Thankfully, the past few weeks of bumming around at home have been very relaxing. I'm going to miss the complete lack of responsibility when I begin working in August. Oh the downside, this break has also made me very lazy in just about everything else as well. It's also given me plenty of time to think. It's a little bit scary. Of my three best friends one is married, one is engaged, and the third is in a very serious relationship. I'm not ready for anything even close to that, and it's a little scary to see them moving ahead with their lives so quickly. I love seeing them so happy, but it's not where I imagined things would be right now.

Thinking about starting to work is also slightly frightening. And really, it's not the thought of working or paying bills that's scary as much as the possibility that I might stop wanting more and become complacent with just being "average" or "normal." There is so much that I want to do and see and learn and experience. I don't want my life to become a predictable routine. I want to spend every weekend doing something different- sailing, shooting, dancing, ultimate, music, camping, biking, hiking, traveling...Life is an adventure that is meant to be lived.

But then there are times that I remember that this life is not what really matters...what matters is eternity. And really, whether I do these things or not won't matter if I can't save my soul. And yes, that is a sobering thought. Basically, I wish I knew what I was supposed to do with my life.